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29/07/2008 HHope sth. would change when I come back......
I can't help myself to look at the way I dn't want to look at...
but if I could....I won't hv to leave....
I hope I can never need to come back...to face the annoying facts......
I hope the new city will make me a stronger person.......
I hope sth. can get out of my brain......
I hope I will learn how to be a human being......
I hope all the dark clouds will be away.....
I hope sth. can be forgotten after that......
I hope sth. can stay the same......
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Sometimes just hope I was able to lost some of my memory......
Bcz of the greed of human being...
they hv to keep sth. they dn't want while they choose to keep the ones they are attached.....
they deserved it....
Yes...I deserved it......
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26/07/2008 early moring...It's 7:40 in the morning, I can't go to sleep 'cause I have too much thing in my head.....
"I kissed a girl 'n I like it...." it'a a unrelated song I'm listening...but I like it recently....
I know how badly I wish I could like Cassie, fucked everythin' up and just threw everythin' out, and just flyed to N.Y.C....
oh...NEW YORK...such a beautiful name!!!!
Whatever~~I'm going to LA...the differences...is that I can't like Cassie...just ignore everybody...and leave....
But I know...clearly...that I can't like her...'cause I'm not her....I'm me....
It gonna be exciting anyway!!! Travel alone...first time....even though I enjoy self-shopping...always...but self-travelin' is the first time...I dn't know if I'm gonna like it....maybe yes...maybe no....but just escappin'..........from the things I dn't wanna think of....
Goin' to LA it's a decision that made up two days before the summer begin again...a fast decision...so everythin' is not ready...except the job as a housekeeper is fixed...I dn't know when I will leave yet...'n I dn't know when I'm gonna come back...
Actually...I wanna stay there if it's fun.....stay there....forever.....no...no forever....but like transfer from city college of san francisco to city college of los angeles....and just go to UCLA directly!!!....hahaha~!!!!
GOOD IMAGINATION!!!
Not so relax this summer......'cause I'm not sure if I can get A in the summer class...
first time....is it first time?....whatever....I'm feelin' like I can't do what I want....I did try very hard on the essay...but I dn't know...I didn't get an A...at least the last one...I tried it so hard......'n I'm beigin to worrying about the 1A in the fall....I really dn't know if I can get A...but I just totally dn't wanna see a B...I hate B........
Maybe leaving is a good decision...stay 10 days....
I'm always complain myself that I dn't have much drama in my life....
So this time I'm gonna create some...
Gonna work in a unkown place...new place...
I check the schedule of that hostel...they have BBQ party...Night party...and a limo riding night!!!
wow....LIMO...I wish I could own one in the futrure....so exciting about it!!!
Gonna use lots of money again...but I dn't wanna think about it...hope the finacial aid will come a little quick...
Oh!!! I can use my little yellow suitcase this time!!!
Beside UCLA...this maybe is one of my reason to escape...escape with little yellow suitcase....sweeeet!!!
"I wanna be...a flower....not a dirty leave.....'cause I dn't wanna be....one of the boy....I wanna be....one of....the GIRL..."
Another favorite song these days........
gonna go to bed again....
12/07/2008 笑死咗....今日做緊也個時好搞笑， 有個阿嬸喺拒個女試緊鞋個時指住對7號半喺到大哎“this is too big！” 然後指住對8號喺到感嘆“this one looks good！” 我真喺好想即刻爆笑出嚟！ ！ ！哈哈哈！ ！ ！笑死我啦！ ！ ！ 之後有個講普通話噶阿婆拿住對6號半噶鞋叫我幫拒穩對6號噶， 我睇過之後同拒講話賣曬。 以為拒唔會要啦... 點知拒嘟起個嘴好唔耐煩甘同我講“好啦好拉，要啦要啦！” 喂！婆婆，我無逼你買喔！ 都唔啱著買嚟托咩！ ！ 我即刻拎轉面扮曬放好個盒，然後喺到偷笑， 仲搞到我收錢個時嘚到個頭鬼死甘低， 因為真喺忍唔住笑。哈哈哈~~~~~~~救命啊！ ！ 最神奇噶就喺呢兩個人竟然喺兩母女， 個阿婆見到拒個女買咗打襪，拒就喺到大哎“我也要買！我也要買！” 呢兩個人買兩樣也要分兩次比錢！ 仲要一個同我講英文一個同我講普通話， 之前個阿嬸同拒個女仲喺甘點我幫拒地搵鞋，又7號，又7號半， 比拒地玩死！ 本身今日喉嚨痛個人有D燥，死下死下甘， 點知比呢兩個人搞一搞就精神曬， 真喺多得拒地唔少啦！ ！ ！ fuck it!!! Something is sicken me! I know there's something sicken me! Not only the pain in my throath, but also a sucker. I finally feel what Jenny feel because I see what she sees. A broken heart, which cannot be broke any more, has no mroe excuse to fix it. Again, it proofs that being stupid is the best way to make my life happier, at least not so woeful. Maybe I should be like Cassie, who just ran away from London to New York, forgot about everything sucks in that ridiculous city, and began a new life in a brand now world. Or I should be like Chris, who just died in a sudden, knowing nothing, and finally be a happy sucker in everybody's heart. I wanna run away, too. To LA, the dream city. Hide in the hostel at some cornor close hollywood. Find a job there and live for a month, or maybe stay there forever, never be back. There are so many people say that only the loser run away. Now you know what? I am a loser, and now I wanna run away. OK? I've never ever been a winner. Why can't I be a perfectly beautiful loser. At least I know I am the one who lose, completely. After that, I will be back, and start a new life. Maybe I would fuck everything up again, but just fuck it!!!
I should understand the truth--hold the things which can be mine forever, and others, just fuckin' let it go. How's that? I'm learning to live without you now, and I will try not to miss you. You are a sucker. I am sucker than sucker!!! Suck you back!!! See what Albert Einstein said, "When you look at yourself from a universal standpoint, something inside always reminds or informs you that there are bigger and better things to worry about." In my universal, much more things worth me to worry about, exacpt you. Hold the only thing that gives me the right to speak up, others, like Chris said....just fuck it!!!
1/07/2008 finally you be the member!!!哇！！等咗甘耐...今天终于都将little yellow suitcase 搬回家啦！！！YEAH！！
热烈欢迎它成为家里的一员！！！
欢迎，欢迎！欢迎，欢迎！
呢次很好彩，
我抬了yellow little suitcase 回家的时候，
妈咪看到它净喺问我“呢次又买D咩番嚟啊？”
我话“个箱囉！”
跟住就无事发生啦！！
等我仲担心呢次唔知又要比妈咪烦几耐添,
看来妈咪已经习惯咗我乱买嘢呢个习惯啦！！
搞到我有D寂寞添！！（我是欠骂还是欠揍？）
话说回来，
yellow little suitcase 还未开箱呢！（因为回来的时候赶着把它收好以防万一......）
但是暂时还没有用，
不过礼拜天应该就会开出来欣赏一下，
真喺高兴啦！！！
偷懒时间够！
快D番去做埋D功课先得！
下个礼拜就midterm啦！！！ |
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